sobriety girl

One of the biggest fears of beginning any journey is the unknown. We do not know where the journey will take us and that can be quite scary. What will we uncover? What will we find along the way? The journey is as amazing as the final destination. We learn with each step. We learn we have the ability to go in any direction we choose. That direction is very much of our own accord.

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The Wall

Jan 29, 2010 9:18am

This morning, a very dear friend wrote this to me:"...powerful is your default state, you just let the CRAP overtake you, like vines creeping up a wall. You're the wall. The vines are your insecurities..." http://twitter.com/jackfrombklnIt's been a tumultuous week with several notable minor but annoying meltdowns to enhance the...

Ambiguity

Jan 21, 2010 10:13am

"If I take refuge in ambiguity, I assure you that it's quite conscious."-Kingman BrewsterMany years ago, I used to retreat into this deep and very dark hole when I felt insecure or immensely stressed about a situation. If there was a question, I'd hide. If faced with doubt, I'd dig...

Humility

Jan 10, 2010 4:16am

Several months ago, someone gave me this sage advice: "You don't need to oversell yourself in life, you just need to practice a little humility".Interesting advice for someone whose basic definition of humility had rarely expanded from the thought that humble meant weak.This particular advice was referenced to my professional...

Happy Holidays

Dec 23, 2009 8:10am

"The important thing is this: To be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become."-Dubois...

Sobriety and Thanksgiving: A Repost

Nov 16, 2009 8:00am

Here's a scenario. It's your first few months sober and Thanksgiving, being your first holiday, suddenly creeps up on you. Panic. Angst. What do you do? Hide from the family? Ignore the holiday completely?As if holidays aren't tricky enough, being sober during these times, when being merry and celebratory is...

The Seven Year Itch

Oct 18, 2009 11:32am

I've hit a crossroad in the last year that likens itself to the seven year itch, as referred in marriage and a Monroe film. It is during this time in a marriage, after seven years, that being unfaithful may become into thought. I can assume (I say mostly assume because...

The Demise.

Aug 19, 2009 12:56pm

As there are many cycles in our lives, I find one cycle within sobriety that has been resonating over and over again in the last year. Over the last few weeks, I have been dealing with my ever questioning state of sobriety with a scowl and intermittent indifference. The cycle...

She let go.

Jul 30, 2009 3:50am

"She let go. Without a thought or a word, she let go.She let go of the fear. She let go of the judgments. She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head. She let go of the committee of indecision within her. She let go of all...

The Contentious Relationship.

Jun 30, 2009 3:13pm

Over the last few months, there has been a complete breakdown of communication. I've been bitter and angry. Spiteful. Hurt. I've almost walked away several times. I've battled, yelled, pleaded and tried total rationalization with little success. It's been up and down to the point that I've become dizzy....

Present.

Jun 21, 2009 4:35pm

I don't know that I have ever truly believed that people could be present within their lives. If one is present, I've thought, where does the past fit in? I have always been one to try and rectify my past by trying to figure it out. To solve the problems...

Awareness

Jun 7, 2009 4:34pm

One of the greatest accomplishments in life, in my opinion anyway, is self-awareness. I've blogged about this before in a completely different learning stage of self-awareness. The whole process of recognizing self-awareness is truly awe inspiring. It's when truly find this awareness that we are able to recognize what...

A preview of "The Sober Door" (The book).

May 27, 2009 11:41am

I am by no means finished, but it's getting there so I wanted to share the preface (again) and first chapter of my fiction piece, "The Sober Door". It's grueling, painful and wonderful all at the same time. Thank you for all your support and would love to hear feedback....

Expectations.

May 20, 2009 4:11pm

" . . . Take another glass of wine, and excuse my mentioning that society as a body does not expect one to be so strictly conscientious in emptying one's glass, as to turn it bottom upwards with the rim on one's nose."-Charles Dickens, "Great Expectations"In the wake of my...

Rescripting the past.

May 11, 2009 3:17am

In the last two weeks, I've found myself in an interesting situation and time in my sobriety. While I have been sober for almost eight years, I always feel like I've been missing something. There are times when I think that I miss the excitement of irresponsibility and the...

Writing the book

May 8, 2009 4:36pm

I apologize, I am in heavy book writing mode. Be back in a day or so....

The porch.

Apr 30, 2009 5:10am

Just about ten years ago, I used to sit on my front porch while in the throes of my final days of being consistently inebriated, waiting. I was waiting for the inevitable to happen; my marriage was failing, job was left and emotionally I was numb. I would sit and...

Happiness

Apr 19, 2009 3:57pm

I used to think that happiness eluded me. I was not able to find the things that were able to make me feel fully content and at peace. I blamed all the circumstances and mishaps of my life as reason for not being truly happy. This elusiveness caused me great...

The Process of self-invention.

Apr 9, 2009 5:14am

As with any kind of recovery program, there comes great self invention when we begin to take stock of ourselves in a new light.When I was first sober, I left my job in the city for two years to reassess where I was in life and who I wanted...

The professional break-up

Mar 27, 2009 1:03pm

As someone who worked within one job function for the better part of my career, getting laid off brought on change that was unexpected and not overwhelming comfortable. I've found in the last two weeks, being laid off bears many parallels to the throes of a personal relationship break-up. One...

I'm positively fired.

Mar 19, 2009 4:12am

Yesterday I was interviewed on the radio regarding my demise as an advertising executive person (got laid off last Friday). I never really thought it would happen....but it did. So, instead of wallowing in self pity, I decided to do something I very rarely engage in---positive thinking.Yes, it's not pretty...

Stay Tuned....

Mar 13, 2009 4:54am

Posting tomorrow after a brief respite....

Hitting Bottom...Sober

Feb 25, 2009 5:30am

Some people say that an addict hits bottom before he pulls himself up and begins the arduous and thrilling road of recovery. To some extent, I believe this to be true. Moments before I decided to become sober, I had essential hit what I knew to be my bottom....

The Economic Recovery Process, as told sober.

Feb 18, 2009 6:06am

This past weekend, I had many thoughts about the economy (who hasn't?) and as I watched TV, I was struck by so many strange incidents that I began writing notes on a napkin (said napkin is in front of me with a brown coffee tinge). I began to think about...

Everyone has a story....

Feb 4, 2009 5:08am

I was born with a sixth finger, a pinkie that was removed about 24 hours after I was alive. Not a big deal by medical standards, but by being born with an extra digit, I came out strange and screaming with a story from the get go.Many decades later, I...

Jan 14, 2009 4:41am

I've been writing a book for the last few months, it's a fictional labor of love about a woman who comes to terms with her sobriety. Since I have been getting a lot of e-mails regarding the book and am appreciative of all the support, I've decided to post...